Why I am so angry?

Tonight has been a really depressing night. Two of the little boys I have been following on that have Cancer have earned their wings. Well that is the polite way of saying it. But I am angry tonight so saying it bluntly they have died. Dante was 2 and had Neuroblastoma. He was put on Hospice last month but they were still giving him radiation because the tumor that had returned behind his eye and his parents wanted him to be able to see for Christmas.He died this morning just all of a sudden. It was so weird because we had just heard from his mom last night. Now we had known that he was retaining a lot of water and was not eating but did not know how sudden it was going to be. Then there is little Coleman. He was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma at the age of 2. Him and his twin brother just turned 5 last month. Things were going well for him until Nov. when something showed up on one of his scans. His mom is a saint. She has so many videos and pics of the boys. And they have done so much together. On 12/23 they did this Polar Express thing nearby their house and then on 12/24 things where fine and then all of a sudden Coleman's speech started slurring and he started drooling. They took him to the ER. After that they brought him back home and eventually on Christmas day he was airlifted to a hospital but made a recovery. But was sent home on Hospice. On New Years Eve He they could not get his pain under control and was sent to the Hospice house. He died at 10:45 last night. Once again it was sudden. I guess I am just angry because it was a kid. Does it have to do with my child? Somewhat. My child is not as serious as these two but her condition may at one point get serious. Never that serious but it will get serious. Plus we fell in love with these boys especially Coleman. Several families did. When you have a child that ill it happens. You come together and form a bond. When Nicole was at the Infusion clinic getting all of her infusions there were kids with all forms of Cancer and blood disorders getting all kinds of treatments. And as parents we stuck together and made sure we got breaks, or got a meal, and had small talk. We formed a family. And the worse part of all of this. I have not had the heart to tell Nicole. Nicole went to bed happy as can be. Her Make a Wish granter called tonight so that we could meet. How could I spoil that? She deserved to be happy for once. And how do I tell her? So I will close with a pic of Nicole I am sure many of you have seen this. It is a pic of when she spent her bday in her hospital. Just a reminder of what these kids go through everyday.