Oh what a week. There have been so many things building up in my life right now. The anniversary of my sister's death is coming up, I have been dealing w/ some health issues myself, the normal things going on w/ Nicole & Danielle is showing some signs of struggling in school. There are so more on the list that for some reason I don't feel comfortable talking about. By Thursday I got frustrated w/ some things happening at work and I just lost it by the time I got home. There were tears and even yelling at Rick. I just could not wait for the week to end.So my mom called last night and wanted to know if I wanted to take the girls to a little festival that was going on here in town today. I just agreed thinking in my mind that I just wanted to crawl in a hole and hide from everyone and everything. SO we get up and go this morning. And what a surprise to see me enjoying myslef. And why? To see Nicole laugh as much as she did. I am sure by now that nost of you know that Nicole was diagonosed w/ Crohn's last Jan. Well she has been so sick to really be happy. This awful disease has consumed her little body. And then these nasty meds that she is on has turned her into a monster. You just never know what type of reaction you are going to get from this child. There are times that she will just break down in tears for no reason or she will scream at you, throw things, and slam her door. To see this child laugh and enjoy herself was the best thing that a mother can expirience. And I just hope that we will be able to see the old Nicole more often.