Meltdowns

Oh what a night. This week was the start of the new school year. Of course as for any parent it is always hectic. I on the other hand had some extra things to deal with. First of all since Nicole has Crohn's I had to go in and take care of some extra things at the school to make sure her medical needs are met while she is there. And with Danielle the beginning of the school year is always so hard on her. We always go in before school starts to meet the new teacher and have her get acclimated to the new classroom. So the first day goes well. But now tonight is a different story. I am already dealing with some medical issues with Nicole.I found out last week that she is iron deficient and they want to put her back on oral iron. Talk about frustrating. We have been down this road already and it did not work. She needs infusions again. The poor girl could not stay awake on the way home from school yesterday. And this morning I spent 30 min. trying to wake her and when she got out into the living room she fell asleep again. Then I get the girls home and Danielle is completely overwhelmed. She has a meltdown while she is in the tub.Rick and I spent about 30 min. just trying to get her calmed down long enough to wash. And then she would not get out of the tub because she thought we were mad at her. I can't not wait for this week to be over with. I prepare myself for this every school year but I am never ready for any of her major meltdowns. We seem to hear the same stuff from her. About how we are bad parents and how mean we are. I am physically and emotionally exhausted. The problem is that Danielle has learned to hold everything in while she is at school and is so overwhelmed by the time that she gets home that she can no longer control her actions. And at that point I have to remind myself that she cannot help it. Am I a bad mom for getting frustrated? We have plans in place for her on how she can cope with this but nothing for us. The only thing I can do is cry afterwards and pull myself back together when she is around again. So it is now all over and I just wait for the next one to happen and hope we can pull her through it again.